Eve is the apple of my eye.

Sometimes I come here to think. I designed this place to explain in due time all I know.

I would like to go on record as having an unprecedented dilemma on my hands. A wonderful dilemma: human nature and the way things ought to be. Are there happy mediums in such a scenario? I really can't decide. There are just things I want to make real that I can't figure out.

I see things in a completely different light nowadays. Things have their own purpose. I don't act out of pure self-conviction anymore. I have become other-centered. Near completely. It's devastatingly ideal. Super-ideal, I'd even say.

I Saw - Matt Nathanson
The Mock Love - She Swings (thanks, B)
Thinking About You - Radiohead
Kill - Jimmy Eat World
Leaves You Feeling Alright - Trouble With Ferguson
Forever - Chris Brown
Dance Inside - The All-American Rejects

Next year I will be taking five full-year courses:
PSYC 100
CLST 101
HIST 122
SOCY 122
FILM 110
Still haven't heard back on the residence situation just yet, but I'm still hoping for a single.

I don't know exactly where to go after that thought. I suppose it'll come to me. I'm not necessarily a classy read--more of a choppy, grit-your-teeth-and-bear-it kind of tale. I think that's the way my life works out. There's always going to be SOMETHING I could complain about--I think now I've just chosen not to... y'know? I could whine and complain, or I could take it all in stride, look ahead to what is coming, and keep on with my 3TRACKMIND. Which is really a two track mind, but where's the fun in that?

My God, I've got things to sort out. Good things, don't get me wrong. There's nothing like feeling TOO loved.

FINALLY. I have one question that's been on my mind for a while. Wait for it.
Am I going to be a good father? I'm not sure I've got in me.



Hope to see you all again, someday. I wonder if I ever will.
-AP happened