Hooray for autosave!

Some people are just at a place where they are saying everything on these things. And I'm not sure how to respond to that.
It makes me smile/laugh/worried/jealous/happy/tired (choose one).
I have decided to come here because tonight feels like a good time for me to mark the beginning of my summer. I almost feel like making a list of things I would like to accomplish (like I would've done in the past), partly so I can just take a look at all the shit I'll never get done. Because that's really what they're meant for, right? All these "I want to..." lists I've been cranking out in the last three years of this thing. But maybe what I will do is give a brief run-down of where I'm at right now, at the beginning of the summer.


I have a job (that I might be quitting)
I have no girlfriend (see above)
I have a sixteen day trip to China planned
I have a (hopefully) life-long immunity to Hep C (or A... should probably get that figured out)
I have a few fences to mend, I believe
I have some talents I would like to work on
I have to finish chemistry

Now for a few explanations on all of the aforementioned.


I have a job (that I might be quitting): If two or more of the good co-workers or managers quit or leave, then I will be relocating to a different job (fingers crossed). But on the bright side, I do have a quitting buddy! We have a pact for job-searching when we both quit.
I have no girlfriend (see above): Just because there's so many things I will not talk about here, I will refer back to the job thing. I have no girlfriend because I have no time for one = having a job. I have no girlfriend because I cannot afford one = quitting my job. Oh, and I just don't think I have what it takes.*
I have a sixteen day trip to China planned: I have to pack and that whole thing, but overall I'm looking forward to it. But I will not be looking forward to losing those sixteen days. In a weird sort of way.
I have a (hopefully) life-long immunity to Hep C (or A... should probably get that figured out): I can now cross off one more STD from my list of things to worry about... when I share a drink with anyone...
I have a few fences to mend, I believe: I have been a jackass for the majority of this year. Done.
I have some talents I would like to work on: Because next year I would like to kick some ass. Mwuahaha. *See above.
I have to finish chemistry: Because I would like that credit. Done.

If you feel like you're losing by giving, then you didn't need to be giving.

Romance is dead, I shot it in the chest then the head

I Can’t Save The World

I am just a boy
I sleep in my bed; I eat at my kitchen table
When the sun is out, I play outside
Or I don’t
But I can’t save the world

I am just a boy
I imagine myself growing old
And when I do, I pray it isn’t alone
But it might be
And I didn’t save the world

I am just a boy
I try not to think about my mistakes
Anymore than I have to, to learn
And I make a lot
Like not saving the world

I am just a boy
I bleed the same way as you do
Just not as often – or maybe more
I hope it’s the second
Since I’m not saving the world

I am just a boy
I jump on the bandwagon, sometimes
I didn’t even like POGS
There goes my money
Meanwhile, I could’ve been saving the world

I am just a boy
The night sky makes me feel insignificant, sometimes
So it’s a good thing I’m already on my back
I’d be knocked there
Now I know I can’t save the world

I am just a boy
Most of the time I wish that I could fly
So that I could see the Seven Wonders of the World
And all its problems
Just because I didn’t save the world

I am just a boy
I complain about having so much to do
At least I have those opportunities
Others do not
Even for them, I do not save the world

I am just a boy
Even amongst the busyness, I still get bored
So I preoccupy myself with hobbies
One of them is not
Saving the world

I am just a boy
I have trouble making eye contact
Especially with starving children on my TV
It inspires me
I decide to save the world, but I don’t

I am just a boy
I have a goal to be famous one day
And have influence over thousands, like Oprah
And I will relax
And forget about trying to save the world

I am just a boy
I reflect on my life, maybe too much
And I realize how little I have done
And I feel guilty
For I have not saved the world

I am just a boy
I have started to realize my limits
And made realistic goals for the world
Like changing myself
Because I can’t save the world