but the driveway's clear / you pray for silence

guide to a good time:

1. guitar
2. jones soda
3. sharpie
4. cammy
5. witness
6. dart board
7. polaroid cammy
8. records
9. creek

"i wake up to find it's another four asprin morning"

come on. this is more of a Circus than it is a hospital. the first thing on my to do list for the break is to try and forget, then figure out what's going wrong with me. i'm getting injured by doing nothing. maybe some resigning is in order. But of what?

"i take the stairs to car and there's fog on the windows."

maybe i'll do that now:
1. forget everything.
2. memorize lines.
3. learn some songs... rescued, 'round here, crash into me, come what may, spiders, comfortable, split screen sadness.
4. write some.
5. come home.
6. work with cammy.
7.
8. drink more from glass bottles.
9. blast through some books and their corresponding reports.

starting to realize that my life is so brutally awkward, and i bet someone somewhere is entertained.
at least my ratings would go up.

"i grip the wheel and all at once i realize:"

when something as simple as an EP is relevant, then you've got something going for you.

"my life has become a boring pop song, and everybody's singing along."

by the way, it's www.byanthem.tk now. but if you're at tdchristian, it's still blogspot. 'cause my school blocked my .tk splash page.
if that was over your head, don't worry.

night,
- park hotel

the used - blue and yellow

Should've done something
But I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste my time with you

-and I mean that.

if it's worth saying, it's worth saying it so someone'll swoon.


 New meaning to the Elephant Love Medley. Yes there is.
 I'm just exploring this whole new realm of possibilites... it's sort of mind-numbing, in a way. And I'm not sure I was quite
ready for it all at once. But now it's a bit late for second thoughts, now isn't it? But maybe I should be done second-guessing
myself. Which is really ironic, because you may think that everything I say has meaning. Wrong. I just sit here and type.


a·stound (-stound)

tr.v. a·stound·ed, a·stound·ing, a·stounds 

To astonish and bewilder. See Synonyms at surprise.

v : affect with wonder;

A new flashy camera!

IMG_0451
Originally uploaded by age_six_racer.

So I think this counts as growing up...
No? Dang.

Well, I didn't actually end up buying a camera from Henry's -- but Blacks. Even if there wasn't a price difference, the Blacks staff was nicer.
Either way:
Blacks 1264.99 - Andy 0

But hey, they give you a refund if you can find a better deal in the next 60 days -- and I did! So money back.
Blacks a little less - Andy just enough to get by

But I found some other pictures from before the new cammy, so that's what's on ByAnthem right now, so you'll have to wait a bit longer for the fruits of my... play. But you'll see less of the pictures I like, because hopefully (the way it's working out now) I'll like more.

8 megapixels. Daaaaaaang.


Sleep tight,
Maddie prep

How much fantastic are you?
About this much!
Yeah, you're about that fantastic.

Countdown update: 2-ish days. I've found me a Henry's!
Right on.

Someone once said, "Perhaps the feelings that we experience when we are in love represent a normal state. Being in love shows a person who he should be." That would've been Anton Chekhov
He was pretty smart.

Things going well for you? Well then:
"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power." - Abraham Lincoln.
You've got this chance, don't miss it.

Somehow I feel strangely calm in all of this. That's the third time I've felt so unbelievably relaxed that it's numbing. I'm stark-raving calm. It's explosive -- and yet catchy. I could easily get addicted to this.

things
always
take
longer
than
they
seem
.
I figured that one out not so long ago. Guess when I was supposed to figure it out? So long ago. And there's just something about white, shiny things that makes all of that go away. Chairs, chairs, the magical fruit. The more you eat the more you can't sit and stuff. Bummer.

"To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead." - Bertrand Russell

So notice the majestic not-use of yellow in this whole dang thing. You don't need yellow to make it pretty, kids. And besides... I can't read it.

Fine. Let's play UnScramble The Words;

so i love you... badly...
YOUR TIME STARTS... NOW.

-madison prep

it's that moment where you have to decide to be long-winded or to just go listed that i hate.
i'm not saying that i don't preplan my words...
...kay, now i am...

in case you ever get stopped by the RIDE program, it's more fun than you think. just a tip: don't be drunk, eh?

after some artistic encouaragement of the days past (i.e. mcmichael art gallery à la français). but without tripping over some failed attempt at being a lyricist, optimist, antagonist, chemist, or narcissist, i've got nothing. anyway...

"♥ the ," officially kicks off right now.

without dragging on and on about things you don't want to hear, i think i'll share something.
i'm really not as _______ (stupid/smart/stable/saintly/sociable) as i seem.
don't plan on such a clever set of words as that by fluke again.

this is what i get for being unprepared.

just an update on msn.com's top five searches:
5. Crying statue (is this some sort of relic? i've heard of the crying statue of mary before. is this new?)
4. Edgar Cayce (yeah, who's that?)
3. Jodie Sweetin (in the top five? you've got to be kidding me. i mean, i've got no clue.)
2. Jessica Simpson (well, she is single again.)
1. World's ugliest dog (what happened here?)

HOW'S ABOUT A QUIZ,

In all seriousness, though. Things just aren't fitting so well together. I'm overscheduled, and it's going to cost me. I'm not talking to the right people whenever I get the chance (which feels like standing on that cliff over the lake at your cottage that one summer). I guess I can blame that on reverting back to my introverted personality... I wish I could be consistant. That'd be a welcome change.

1. What do you think, should I keep you all guessing?

Lately, I wish I could just nail things down like I could in little school. Certainly feeling like a train wreck -- or a hurricane... because a hurricane would let me continue my analogy of nailing things down. Like shingles. Or windows. Or deck chairs. Either way, analogy aside, I'm feeling like I want back to the elementary life (in every essence) -- but it wasn't very rewarding. Maybe if I could redo it I could be a better person.

2. True or False: If Andy redid little school he could be a better person.

I think it's fair to say that I can start the Rebel countdown* without feeling school-girl-ish. The question still remains: what kind of lens am I going to buy? Time to find me someone with knowledge in these departments. Which brings up a thought -- it would suck to work at BestBuy, because the alrams go off almost every other minute. Anyway, with the pending purchase, byAnthem will be dormant for my part until then. Which is beneficial to me, so I can concentrate on better things.

3. Prioritize Andy's Life from 1-11:
- school
- staying in touch
- thinking about the future
- dwelling on the past
- buying christmas gifts
- keeping track of service hours
- fixing the iPod issue (switching computers)
- basketball team
- school play
- photography
- writing

That pretty much captures the essence of some small part of my life... But hey, take what you can get. And my bus broke down today -- twice. I know what you're thinking: the one time he's actually on the bus. But it was actually pretty fun. The eight of us got off the bus, went to Shopper's Drugmart or CoffeeTime and just brought back an assortment of food. "Anybody want a doughnut? Macaroons? Popcorn? Fuzzy Peaches? Pepsi? Buggles?"

4. Which food do you pick? Why?

If you're expecting some deep revelation of my personality, or some revelation of your own -- don't count on it. Sorry if I let you down there, probably should've warned you near the beginning. But you'll learn things about yourself in some of the weirdest places. For instance, I got Beauty and the Beast for Christmas (on Christmas Eve; family tradition) when I was two. I know, eh? But that's not all:
"We can't watch that tonight Andy, it's too late tonight. But maybe tomorrow."
I saw it for the first time when I was thirteen.

5. a) How did you do for revelation of Andy's character? b) Your own?
6. What's the first Christmas gift you remember? Which is the most meaningful?
7. How well are you going to sleep tonight?


*10 DAYS

post.script. ♥ the ,

today's assembly disturbed me.

i could so analyze lines from disease (matchbox twenty) right now.
yeah, i think i will.

Feels like you made a mistake
You made somebody's heart break
"whoops, did i break that? oh i'm sorry, i didn't notice. i'll pay for that..."

You left a stain
On every one of my good days
"i've got a stain on my sweater."

No one's ever turned you over
No one's tried
To ever let you down
"you're that great. you are that great."

Beautiful girl
Bless your heart
whoa ho. now he's blessing her? daaaaaang he's in love. or opposite.

I can't live without you
Tell me
What am I supposed to do about it
notice how guys always want to know what we're supposed to do?
that's because we don't want to screw up.

Feels like you're making a mess
"no kidding..."

You're hell on wheels in a black dress
metahpors are great...

Every little thing you do is tragic
ow. ow. ow. ow. ow.
it's beautiful.

Beautiful girl
I can't breathe
...kay... he just changed it up on me.

But leave me be
While my world is coming down on me
you know how often i've wanted to say that?

gah... how's about a few bonus split screen sadness (john mayer) lines?

Maybe I'll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on your porch til' you come back home
Oh, right
I can't find a flight
ha! i love that... "oh, right... i can't find a flight..."

All you need is love, is a lie cause
We had love but we still said goodbye
god...

And it stings when it's nobody's fault
um. yeah. 

So I'll check the weather wherever you are
Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
"gee, i love you too..."

I called
Because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don't hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me 'til your dying day
Don't let me get away
*click*

Cause I can't wait to figure out what's wrong with me
So I can say that this is the way that I used to be
"i cannot believe me."

what i know:

• the most powerful force on earth: eye contact
• "can't you see the grass is greener where it rains?" bell x1
  

what i learned:

• relationship is proof of sanity.
• "I made him just and right. sufficient to have stood, though free to fall." -john milton
• dueteronomy 30:19
• "the greatest feeling in the world is knowing someone falls asleep thinking about you."

"One more hiss out of you, uh, Hiss, and you're walking to Nottingham." robin hood
"And you can tell everybody that this is your song." elton john

i haven't slept for 10 days, because that would be too long

advertisement update: so apple wants me to buy an imac g5 for my mom, an ibook g4 for my dad, and ipod nano for my sister, and an airport express for my friend.
first, i don't know why they can't start words with consanents... second, don't have a first. third, don't have any of that money. come on apple, your target advertising is just a bit off.

all the mistakes one life can take, they all finally start to go away... and i feel like i can face the day.

i know there are two t's. forget it.
but you don't want no drama. (that neeeever ever happened)

this'll be short. but i'm thinking i'm not too bad off. and stop thinking i think i'm not fortunate.
stupid older generations.

looking forward to christmas, goodnight
-anday

oh anastassia,
i'd rather be brent and i combined than be you.
but you're still doing better than me.

oh maggie,
you're swell.
did i do something?

oh boy,
this will be hard to say.
you can hate me later.

oh friend,
we are so alike.
help.

oh brother,
how did you pull it off?
did growing up always suck this much?


i'm going to write an acrostic to ease my mind:

M
A
N

O
H

M
A
N

YOU'RE SWELL

and that made me feel better.

goodnight
goodnight
goodnight
goodnight
goodnight
goodnight
ma coeur

well i can't even bring myself to just leave and publish this.
so forgive me, please, if i break any more hearts tonight. i meant to stop, but i just couldn't.

it'd be nice if someone asked about me once in a while. but what am i saying? that's so selfish and just wrong. i don't deserve to be able to tell anyone about my life, let alone have them listen. let alone have you listen. but you do listen. and i wish i could say thank you enough. and i don't get how you can trust me with everything when i can't even live my own life without it breaking on me.
i talked to an old friend. we're still friends. we've been friends for a long time. he shared his problems and whenever i wanted to say something about me he pulled it back around to him. sure, it may have hurt -- but now i get it. that's what i'm doing. still, i can't get it out of my mind that no one seems to care. and that's hard to grasp. maybe it isn't true, and maybe you'll all tell me that. tell me i'm crazy, that i'm overreacting, that there's nothing wrong, nothing to be afraid of, nothing hiding under my bed or in my closet, or that i need to finally accept that i'm just born to listen. but couldn't they all just be true? because that would be the best out of all of those.
if you had to pick: blind, deaf, or mute? i'd take secret option number four -- colorblind. i almost wish i was partially colorblind. i think i do. but then, i'd probably take mute, out of all of those. but you don't want to hear what i'd pick. what would you pick?
and i just started to realize i don't know enough about my friends.

post script: if you read all that, then i know you listen.
if you didn't, don't feel the need to go back and read it now.
you didn't want to before, and that's fine.

time for an update?

i really should be doing all that french work right now, or even creating my family tree from adam to noah's sons.

it was really windy today. and i liked that. it must be the wind in your hair, or just the feeling that if you fall, something's there to catch you.
i guess that's why i love reality. when i fall, i know i'm always going to hit something. there's a certainty that can't be bought. certainty feels nice and is increasingly hard to come by. i can't even be sure what i say is interpreted the right way anymore.

i keep looking over at the black binder labeled "CALENDAR" and wonder what exactly that means. or what it means to me.

remembrance day poppy, check
alzheimersociety thunder bay calendar, check
toronto star article on twentysomethings who can't fend for themselves, check
broken headphones, check
(this is sounding more and more like fun, and less and less like john mayer)
elastic band, check
new t-shirts, check
unpersonalized letter to me, check
contacts, check
dog asleep on a pillow on the couch, check
steady cash flow, not so check

but then again, what do i need money for? nothing important... just a camera, cornerstone ticket, lovedrug cd, and an increasing number of movies i want/need to see.
nyeh.

did you know that i have my name written on someone's binder. i wonder if they still use it.

-signed radiotown

p.s.

in response to my dubble bubble comic, i plan on buying the domain name www.girlsdontbite.com

so hands off.

"give me the sunshine"

this is a stick-up.
give me all of your heart and nobody gets hurt.
promise.
on my favourite line.

but tell me.
does the boy in
the corner mean
so much more now?






oh, and:
marius
loves
cossette.

so that heart is for me? to keep?

planetary

p.s. il est juste une réaction(de force). une réaction normale. une imagination honnête.
completely.

dear illusive,
and i'm caught up. being caught up feels good. sometimes it just takes a good unit test to get caught vvv
(being a fool feels better.) wrong.)
up.
nothing like a good unit test to get caught ^^^

getgetgetgetgetgetgetgetgetget it in your(my) head. that was for me. and me only. but you can bor(e me)row it. please, tell me what you think i(am)'m thinking, because otherwise, i'll never know, oh.

compare(me)d to blackouts, this is nothing.
nothing is good. don't take that wrong.
and when i say nothing, none of you will believe that.
did you believe that?

"just before sundown / just one more day i could hold you."

come prepared to meet your fate.
sincerely,
Captain Cooke


p.s. it's just a reaction. a gut reaction. an honest imagination.

j'ai une imag(e)ination honnête.

soundtrack for my funeral (skip this if you want):
cry on demand - ryan adams
spiders - lovedrug
california - copeland
kite - copeland
brightest - copeland
you love to sing - copeland
when finally set free - copeland
ghost of you - my chemical romance
rescued - jack's mannequin
when paula sparks - copeland
of angels and angles - the decemberists
love is a fast song - copeland
here's everything i've always wanted to say - jamisonparker
fix you - coldplay
marching bands of manhattan - death cab for cutie
what sarah said - death cab for cutie
collide - howie day
burning bridges - jason mraz
the most beautiful things - jimmy eat world
konstantine - something corporate
my sundown - jimmy eat world
as you sleep - something corporate
i won't make you - something corporate
sparkle - jimmy eat world
i'll give - smalltown poets
superman - luna halo
drive - all star united
same - snow patrol
kill - jimmy eat world
world without end - five iron frenzy
pour your love down - audio adrenaline
23 - jimmy eat world
she will be loved - maroon5
older chests - damien rice
cavanaugh park - something corporate
together - phil joel
black star - radiohead
fake plastic trees - radiohead
awake - the scaries
wish you were here - pink floyd
for you to notice - dashboard confessional
so impossible - dashboard confessional
remember to breathe - dashboard confessional
hands down - dashboard confessional
only one - yellowcard
the meaning of it all - plankeye
goodbye - plankeye
somewhere out there - our lady peace
the scientist - coldplay
dare you to move - switchfoot
tears in heaven - eric clapton
the western wall - seven places
along the way - seven places
wishing well - cadet
today - cadet
high tide - cadet
everything you want - vertical horizon
imagine - john lennon
something's missing - john mayer

i've been thinking about when i die. and it's not fun.
don't bring huge bouquets, bring a single flower.
don't make one of those photo collages, just one photo.
don't do a viewing.
and there better be music.
oh, there better.
wear whatever you want.
you don't have to stand.
visitations are good.
do something i would've done. like an elastic band.
cry or don't.
don't try to out-know me. "how did you know andy?"
call me andy, call me andrew, call me captain, call me whatever -- just make it catchy.
don't just sign the guestbook.
don't bother my family -- if they want to sit, let them.
don't say "i just can't imagine" or any variant.
turn off your phone.
sit outside, late that night. or watch a movie. or talk to that special person. or listen to music.



no, i'm not morbid. i'm just circumstantial.

1. The only reason I can sleep at night is that I'm not God.

Sweetest Day

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia.

Sweetest Day is a pseudo-holiday primarily celebrated in the Midwestern U.S. states of Illinois, Michigan, Ohio and Wisconsin. It is celebrated on the third Saturday in the month of October.

The holiday is said to have begun in the city of Cleveland, Ohio in 1922. Candy store employee Herbert Birch Kingston put together a group of citizens to provide small gifts to homeless people, orphans, and others who had fallen on hard times. This tradition now seems to largely involve giving small presents, such as cards, candy and flowers, to family, friends, and lovers.

This holiday is more well-known in the Northeast, but seems to be making a resurgence as retailers try to capitalize on it -- trying to make another Valentine's Day.

In 2005 Sweetest Day is Saturday, Oct. 15.

in an effort to make things more interactive:
NAME THAT BALLOON!

welcome to NTB, the show that lets you NAME THAT BALLOON! the rules are simple: you'll give your suggestions, i'll read them, any suggestion by brent will be ignored, we'll then vote on the names.

no, i'm joking. brent, you can still play.

before you all start going "what happened," think of me.

while you were all at school, i was doing real work.

Forgive me for quoting A Muppet Christmas Carol.

With a thankful, with a endless joy
With a growing family, every girl and boy
Will be nephew and niece to me
Nephew and niece to me
Will bring love, hope and peace to me
Love hope and peace to me
Yes, everyday will end and everyday will start
With a gratful prayer and a thankful heart

With an open smile and with open doors
I will greet welcome, and what's mine is yours
With a glass raised to toast your health
With a glass raised to toast your health
And a promise to share the wealth
Promise to share the wealth
I will sail a friendly course, file a friendly chart
On a sea of love and a thankful heart

Life is like a journey
Who knows when it ends?
Yes, and if you need to know the measure of a man you simply count his friends
Stop and look around you
The glory that you see
Is born again each day, don't let it slip away
How precious life can be

With a thankful heart that is wide awake
I do make this promise with every breath I take
Will be used now to sing your praise
Used now to sing your praise
And beg you to share my days
With a loving guarantee
That even if we part
I will hold you close in a thankful heart
I will hold you close in a thankful heart
In a thankful heart

Thankful Heart - Muppets

do not go gentle into that good night

i don't need this right now. get off my case. get off my back. cut me some slack. give me a break.
the last thing i need now is -- you?

no, you're the first thing i need.
and don't you forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't i forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't i forget it. and don't you forget it. and don't i forget it.
because i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you. i need the bold you. i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you. i need you.

so, you tell me. when is it best for you?
never?
pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease
good, because i so hate confrontation
and i want you all to answer that, so i'm sure to get the answer i need
write on a piece of paper and give it to me
it sucks. speeking of which, "my job sucks and yours blows"

oh, i promise i'll reflect it right back at you
i'm just a little unwell. i know, right now you can't tell
and i wish i had an airport somday. some days are just so hard

and i know you're all just dying for an update.

so i'm sick. never better. worse than yesterday. and it feels like i fell asleep on my jaw. so if i had the voice to say anything, i probably wouldn't be able to open my mouth. but it's hard to cough with your mouth closed. so coughing now hurts my throat, chest, and jaw. fun.

i really wish i could throw this all into columns. we'd all be so bloody happy then.

i've got this ad'ware on my computer and it's a pain. so finally i go to "add or remove programs," and the stupid program makes you download anyother program just so you can remove the first one. not to mention, my mom thinks limewire is killing her computer. no mom, just my criminal record.

i think it was the music video that originally got me hooked on "the mixed tape" by jack's mannequin. if you don't like the song, the video's still amazing, i thought. but now i know better than that. this is probably the most solid album since, o*, say damien rice. but while you're here. copeland is getting better and better. now, my top songs of the moment would have to be:
you have my attention - copeland
when finally set free - copeland
count on me - default
half right - jimmy eat world
bad day - daniel powter
rock your body - justin timberlake
burnin bridges - jason mraz
drugs or me - jimmy eat world
that awful memory of yours - copeland
hitchin' a ride - green day
chariot - gavin degraw
if you could read my mind - gordon lightfoot
superman - lazlo bane
i am the walrus - the beatles

i had to clean off my old computer, wipe all my old files. that felt weird. i remember exactly what i was doing when i wrote all of that stuff, and found those pictures. and i think my life just got wiped. i feel wiped. shut up, i know i'm sick.

semi-formal-wha? when? brent, you were listening... right?

release date was moved forward, maybe i'll do something stupid this month.

*get it, "o".
...you did...

why do i want to know?

for the same reason i skip to the end of a book:
because i need to know everything will end up well.
the kingdom will be safe.
the poor will be rich.
the underdog will win.
the cripple will walk.
the bad guy will be in jail.
the forest will return.
the spring will flow.
the town will be safe.
the king will return.
the people will sing.
the road will be repaired.
the gallows will be destroyed.
the gates will swing wide.
the hero will kiss the girl.

cabin pressure dropping to 16 kilometers.
we're about to hit some turbulence, because i'm about to do something stupid. we'll see how it goes.



check back in the winter to see if i'm still alive.

i talked to logan yesterday -- haven't done that in a while. and now i've got something to work towards... more on that later.

i have to go write you something. bye.

oh, pilot can you help me
can you make this last
this plane is all i got
so keep it steady, now


bruised - jack's mannequin

maybe it's getting harder for people to understand me.


stop.



now.

if i hear one more word about not posting, i swear, someone's going to die.

the thing about broken windows is that you can still see through them.

so, last night i did some thinking.

if anyone asks -- the way to do that is to drive around bronte around one thirty, throwing free lick's vegetarian burritos at garbage cans from your car. then go to a playground, put on sunglasses, listen to jack's mannequin and copeland (or dashboard and soco), and jump into a swing that's too short for you. now watch the apartment buildings.

the room on the far left, second from the top, is watching tv. see the flashing lights. you get familiar with those when you walk past or into your parents room for seven years. and it's a huge mother-loving tv. and my shoe is falling off.

so i did some thinking.

i thought that maturity is finally realizing that everything in life has its own hangover.

i thought about this: have you ever been carrying something with someone else. then they ask you if you can carry it by yourself, and you're confident, so you say "yes." they let go and it's only then that you realize how much of the weight they were taking.
you were like that to me
and when you weren't there for that long, i finally -- yes, i mean finally -- realized how much i counted on you being there all the time.
so we've already established that i may be in love
we haven't? oh. well then, nevermind.
i'm not confident anymore

so here comes that hangover. which means, "get out the applesauce". which obviously hasn't been in the fridge. and of course, add cinnamon and granulated sugar. i've heard i put in too much, but to be honest -- i can't taste it. i need to do some thinking. mommy, drive me to bronte.

is there anbody going to listen to my story / all about the girl who came to stay / she's the kind of girl you want so much it makes you sorry / still, you don't regret a single day -girl the beatles

and ryan, in order:
rescued
the mixed tape
holiday from real
kill the messenger
miss delaney

i need you, but, please / don't get me rescued -rescued jack's mannequin

you weren't avoiding me -- were you?

oh, jess;

i was so impressed that i put the link right here: _____

no, sorry about that... it's here: _____

You don't have to be ashamed
'Cause you're a miracle through and through
Oh, and you don't have to be ashamed
Of the miracle inside of you

What has love become?
(What has love become?)
It's not like we used to hear in those old songs
And it's not like yours
(And it's not like yours)
What has love become?

Whoa...your love is in motion
And it's spinning me around, yeah
Whoa...my heart is in motion
For the movement that's in you

You should not be angry
If all she wants is your money
Oh, you should not be angry
'Cause all you want is her body

What has love become?
(What has love become?)
It's not like we used to hear in those old songs
And it's not like yours
(And it's not like yours)
What has love become?


Whoa...your love is a fast song
And I'm dancing 'cause I'm in love with you
Whoa...my heart is in motion
For the rhythm inside you
Whoa...your love is a slow song
It's resounding through my world again
Whoa...my heart is in motion
For the song inside of you

Whoa...your love is in motion
And it's spinning me around, yeah
Whoa...your love is a fast song
And I'm dancing 'cause I'm in love with you
Whoa...your love is a slow song
It's resounding through my world again
Whoa...my heart is in motion
For the song inside of you

love is a fast song - copeland

I was sittin' there, in a comfortable chair 
And that was all that I needed 
Then my friend offered me a drink for us to share 
And that was all that I needed 
Well then I felt at ease 
But then I'm not too hard to please 
I guess you couldn't call me greedy 

And I was shocked to look up and see Rita Hayworth there 
In a place so seedy 
She walked into the bar with the long red curly hair 
And that was all that I needed 
And I said to my friend, "Good God we're lucky men 
Well to just even see her" 

Take, take, take 
Take, take, take 
Take, take, take 

Yeah I could not resist, I just had to get close to her 
And that was all that I needed 
I walked and loomed around, her table for a while 
And that was all that I needed 
Then I said, "I hate to bug you, Ma'am 
But can I have your autograph?" 
And that was all that I needed 

She pressed her lips against a white piece of paper 
And that was all that I needed 
Then I saw what she wrote, my heart is in my mouth 
And that was all that I needed 
Then she handed it to me, and I think that she could see 
That that was all that I needed 

I started to walk away, but then I remembered, hey 
I forgot to get a picture 
So I asked her one more time, could I have another favor 
That was all that I needed 
She was kind to pose with me 
Then I know my friends would see 
My celebrity meeting 

Take, take, take 
Take, take, take 
Take, take, take 

She turned and said to me, "I need to go to sleep" 
And it seemed so mean 
It's almost as if she did not appreciate 
How cool I was being 
She said, "Goodnight" and walked away 
And I didn't know what to say 
I just couldn't believe it 

Well it's just not fair, I wanted to get a piece of hair 
And that was all that I needed 
Or maybe a kiss on the cheek, I wouldn't wash it for a week 
That would be all that I needed 
But she didn't even care 
That I was even there 
What a horrible feeling

take, take, take - the white stripes

distress is not being able to get a girlfriend with a 4 to 1 ratio (girl to boy)
distress is when it's easier to get a boyfriend with a 4 to 1 ratio
distress is knowing it's easier to get a girlfriend with a 1 to 1 ratio

distress is buck-a-beer wednesdays
distress is getting wasted on tuesday

distress is horrible slogans
distress is worse parodies

distress is needing to spice up your prison food
distress is your cellmate not being able to find his seamonkey food

distress is marrying a hippie
distress is divorcing a hippie
distress is writing Y-R-E-S-I-M on a hippie's forehead

distress is living in an appartment for the mentally unstable
distress is getting evicted from an appartment for the mentally unstable

distress is reliving your childhood
distress is forgetting how

I can't light no more of your darkness
All my pictures seem to fade to black and white
I'm growing tired and time stands still before me
Frozen here on the ladder of my life

Its much too late, to save myself from falling
I took a chance and changed your way of life
But you misread my meaning when I met you
Closed the door and left me blinded by the light

Don't let the sun go down on me (down on me)
Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see (I see)
I'm just another fragment of your life to wander free
But losing everything is like the sun going down on me

I cant find, all the right romantic lines
But see me once and see the way I feel
Don't discard me just because you think I mean you harm
But these cuts I have they need love to help them heal

Don't let the sun go down on me (down on me)
Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see (I see)
I'm just another fragment of your life to wander free
But losing everything is like the sun going down on me

Don't let the sun go down on me (down on me)
Although I search myself, it's always someone else I see (I see)
I'm just another fragment of your life to wander free
But losing everything is like the sun going down on me

Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me - Elton John

oh, what a lousy excuse for a car

qmy music told me, and i believe her. she said that i should take

a break -- because i'm having a breakdown.h

so bye.

9rewind

hey, he did it first.



one sings,
another turns;
one preaches,
another converts;
one possesses,
another releases;
one gains,
another decreases;
one tries,
another rebukes;
one explains,
another confuses;
one extends,
another retreats;
one complies,
another defeats;
one exhales,
another faints;
one a martyr,
another a saint.

one is glass,
another grabs a hammer.

one breaks,
another awakes.

it's august sixth by now.


i'm going to hold my breath for seven hours.


i promise, i'll hold it longer if you need me to.

good to know everybody is so frickin' supportive these days...



gee...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rotokas_alphabet

ow, my hitpoints.


first one to say, "a penny a day is worth my wages" wins a prize.


let's see it.






bloggit!

wednesday:

wednesday:
Originally uploaded by age_six_racer.

so i got this today. and personally, i don't think that i have enough time.



maybe i'll open it again next week

i think i'm having hallucinations.
i'll explain.
four times now, i've seen things and heard things that apparently weren't actually there. but it's always the same thing.
i'm not going to describe them to you.
i think i like it.



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i want to be there with them
i want to be there for them
i want to be there with you
i want to be there

So, we're looking at 33 confirmed deaths and a report of at least 40 deaths. Not fatalities -- deaths.

What have I learned? That waking up earlier means I won't be as confused about life.

I don't mean to be light-hearted about the situation, I just don't want to talk about it. Would you?

"I honestly thought I was going to die, as did everyone else."

http://www.cnn.com/2005/WORLD/europe/07/07/london.tube/index.html




07/07

(capital letters... a nice break)...

I share a birthday with:
Morgan Freeman
Andy Griffith
Paul Coffey
Ron Wood (Rolling Stones guitarist)
Alanis Morissette
Norma Jean (Marilyn Monroe)


They died on my birthday:
Helen Keller


On my birthday:
1495 - First written record of Scotch Whiskey
1915 - First zeppelin air raid over England
1938 - Superman comics introduced
1941 - Germany bans Catholic publications
1967 - The Beatles release Sgt Pepper's Lonely Heart Club Band in U.S.A.
1975 - Ron Woods becomes new Rolling Stones guitarist (on his birthday... smashing)
1990 - The Cowboy Channel begins broadcasting





Incidentally, today marks the birthday of:
Ann Landers
Vinny Castilla

And today marks:
1776 - The signing of the Declaration of Independance
1827 - Slavery abolished in New York
1862 - Lewis Carol writes Alice in Wonderland
1888 - First organized rodea held
1941 - Howard Florey and Norman Heatly meet for the first time and recreate penicilin eleven days later
1942 - First American bombing run over Nazi-held Europe
1956 - America's most concentrated rainfall recorded (1.23" in one minute)

July 2, Live 8

June 29, Power School enabled

broken
lonelily
blind
tight
sink
flower
word
lake
candle
cold
twice
anchor
walking
yesterday
old
tall
you
grand
real
weak
hour
time
calling
stay
basement
rent
night
tan
mint
saint
island
drop
sorry
forget
scared
talk
used
lost
away
tonight
day
hand
dial
remember
across
darlin'
to
eskimo
criticism
breathe
awake
sunday
by
sunset
shimmer
doorstop
tears
questions
whisper

Donnie: I made a new friend today.
Dr. Lilian Thurman: Real or imaginary?
Donnie: Imaginary.

Gretchen: You're weird.
Donnie: Sorry.
Gretchen: No, that was a compliment.

Kitty Farmer: [Tearfully to Rose Darko] Sometimes I doubt your commitment to Sparkle Motion.

Frank: 28 days... six hours... 42 minutes... 12 seconds. That... is when the world... will end.


Donnie: Why do you wear that stupid bunny suit?
Frank: Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?

Gretchen: Donnie Darko? What the hell kind of name is that? It's like some sort of superhero or something
Donnie: What makes you think I'm not?

Gretchen: My mom had to get a restraining order against my step dad. He has emotional problems.
Donnie: Oh, I have those too. What kind does your step dad have?
Gretchen: He stabbed my mom four times in the chest.
Donnie: Oh.

Kitty Farmer: Not only am I a teacher, but I am also the mother of a Middlesex child. Therefore, I am the only person here who transcends the parent-teacher bridge.

Karen Pommeroy: This famous linguist once said that of all the phrases in the English language, of all the endless combinations of words in all of history, that Cellar Door is the most beautiful.

[last lines]
Gretchen: Hey. What's going on?
David: Horrible accident. My neighbour... got killed.
Gretchen: What happened?
David: Got smooshed by a jet engine.
Gretchen: What was his name?
David: Donnie. Donnie Darko.
Gretchen: Hmm.
David: I feel bad for his family.
Gretchen: Yeah.
David: Did you know him?
Gretchen: No.

Donnie Darko (2001)

$2,639,894

i just thought this seemed relevent:

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover boy
Cheers darlin'
I got years to wait around for you
Cheers darlin'
I've got your wedding bells in my ear
Cheers darlin'
You give me three cigarettes
To smoke my tears away

And I die when you mention his name
And I lied, I should have kissed you
When we were running in the rains

What am I, darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover man
Cheers darlin'
I just hang around and eat from a can
Cheers darlin'
I got a ribbon of green on my guitar
Cheers darlin'
I got a beauty queen
To sit not very far from here

I die when he comes around
To take you home
I'm too shy, I should have kissed you
When we were alone

What am I, darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

What am I?
What am I, darlin'?
I got years to wait around for you

cheers darlin' - damien rice

literature and film's greatest accomplishments:

• willy wonka - charlie and the chocolate factory
• rusty ryan - ocean's 11
• captain jack sparrow - pirates of the caribbean
• macbeth - shakespeare's macbeth
• napolean dynamite - napolean dynamite
• kip dynamite - napolean dynamite
• christopher - the curious incident of the dog in the nighttime
• donnie darko - donnie darko
• the riddler - batman forever
• joel barrish - eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
• hunter adams - patch adams
• wilson - cast away
• tyler durden - fight club
• atticus finch - to kill a mocking bird
• lenard shelby - memento
• macaulay conner - the philadelphia story
• juror #8 - 12 angry men
• l. b. jefferies - rear window
• forest gump - forest gump
• ed bloom - big fish
• penny lane - almost famous
• merlin - arthur
• han solo - star wars
• christian - moulin rouge!
• lorna doone - lorna doone
• holden caulfield - the catcher in the rye
• sherlock holmes - the hound of the baskervilles
• tom ripley - the talented mr. ripley
• arthur radley - to kill a mocking bird
• eeyore - winnie the pooh
• hannibal lecter - silence of the lambs
• mary poppins - mary poppins
• blondie - the good, the bad, and the ugly
• inspector clouseau - the pink panther
• raymond babbit - rain man
• scarlett o'hara - gone with the wind
• edmond dantès - the count of monte cristo
• christian - the pilgrim's progress
• ford prefect - the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy
• toad - the wind in the willows
• mr. tall - mr. tall
• mr. muggs - mr. muggs
• the homestar runner - the homestar runner enters the strongest man in the world contest
• the grape fairie - the homestar runner enters the strongest man in the world contest

any suggestions/comments welcome

"so call me captain backfire."

john mayer - my stupid mouth

well, it seems like we've been missing colour.
no kidding.


so this year ends, but again, i wasn't quite ready for it. at the risk of sounding like an old clint eastwood movie or a new superhero movie, "i've got some unfinished business to take care of."

before you ask,
"i'd rather not."


wishing he wasn't dead,
-andy

June 21, Power School disabled.

bad tree = bad fruit



and to quote one brother of mine:
'nuff said.

relevency to today's events? 0
but do i care? not a chance...


think of it this way: kick off the exams; draw a liger and a cloud that looks like a bush; lose trust in some kids; pass a test; remember to breathe.


mental note: work on reflexes.

so i think that maybe i should really try harder when it comes to relationships. less ignoring and stupid mistakes. what have we learned today class? with is a preposition! to quote someone special (in their own way), "whee!"

mental note: work on organization.





pass.