Right, why am I here? Because I need some peace of mind. Or to at least to make these things visual. There's something about that.
Yes, I'm at another point where I've lost my mind. Except it went a lot quieter this time. And it brought back a lot of things I thought I had gotten past. Like needing to punch my pillow three times before I go to bed, and staying up way too late on nights I don't need to, and staring myself in the eye, and looking like Hayley-Joel Osment. I feel like I've taken way too many steps backwards. But I won't address this in the second person. No I won't do that. I'll leave that to Howie Day.
I think what I really want is to curl up in a safe place, or maybe to just have March Break come and watch The O.C. Yeah, now I'm Hayley-Joel Osment and Seth Cohen. I didn't say it!
ZOMBIES!
I'm all scattered.
Because I Feel like my best choice is to distance myself from my problems. But I just can't leave her alone. And I mean that in every way. Ha!
CAPTAIN PLANET!
So I really don't know if I could handle it anymore. Because I've started to think more about what would really happen. I'm not as blinded by the initial feeling as I was before...
...so that sucks.
Here's what you need to listen to:
She Says - Howie Day
This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race - Fall Out Boy
Gone Gone Gone - John Ralston
The Funeral - Band of Horses
It Ends Tonight - The All-American Rejects
Time After Time - Quietdrive
Melt Into the Walls - Pilate
Wake Up - The Arcade Fire
Wait - Something Corporate
Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Will Escape - Underoath
Tell Her This- Del Amitri
With or Without You - U2
There Cannot Be a Close Second - Copeland
Testing the Strong Ones - Copeland
Sideways - Citizen Cope
